Michael Jackson

I didn't grow up listening to Michael Jackson. I don't own any of his CD's. I don't have any of his music on my Itunes. The one thing I remember about my childhood is 7th grade choir class, we sang "Man in the Mirror". But since he's been gone, I think I'm slowly starting to see what everyone else had seen all along.

The night he died, my roommate and I watched Thriller the video over and over again. At the video music awards, I cried watching Janet dance and sing a duet with her deceased brother. And now, its 11:30 at night and Im watching an Oprah special finally seeing how lonely and scared he music have been during his life.

In one segment, he speaks about how his father used to beat him. How he physically got sick because he was so scared of "Joseph" as he called him. He said he had never told his father this, looked right at the camera, with fear in his eyes and said "daddy, dont be mad at me".

Oprah then begins to talk to Michael about his sex life and whether or not hes a virgin. He keeps saying over and over "Im a gentleman. Im a gentleman." This is not the way (at the time) 37 year old man acts. I felt so afraid and sad for him. I wish someone would have taken care of him.

I miss everything about you

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

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Is it possible to still be in love with someone after all this time??

Through the years...

Ugh so Zoe did this little post about her hair through the decades. I definitely don't have pictures of me when I was a baby, but I've changed my hair so often that it deserves this:

Currently - I now work for Victoria's Secret and have to hide the tattoos on the back of my neck, so I wear extensions (clip-ins) about 80% of the time.
However during this time, I decided to get orange highlights. Which I LOVED. But they were too punky and I couldn't get a job with them, so they soon passed away.
Beginning 2009 - I decided I needed something new and got an asymmetrical haircut. I REALLY liked it for a while, but it was hard to style it any other way, so I wore it this way for about 5 months and then cut it back to the shorter side.

2008 - Blurry, but I decided to bleach my hair. It lasted about 2 days before I dyed it back dark dark brown. But during these few days, the only pictures are with me with a hat on.

2008 - Ended up dying my hair REALLY light that summer. I should NEVER be blonde.

Late 2008 - Still the same cut. But a little more sophisticated. I got chunky bangs and put in some blonde highlights. I would kill to be able to recreate this look again!
Freshman Year 2008 - My boyfriend at the time really liked blonde and black hair together, the blonde didn't work out, and I ended up dying my entire head black and got this really punky cut and spiked it in the back. Its kinda cute I think.

Freshman Year 2008 - This is right after I got my extensions out and had my hair dyed a dark red. I actually really like this cut on me, and the color. I'm even happy with the length.
Late 2007 - Summer before freshman year, This is when I spent all my graduation money ($800!!!) to get extensions put in. I did love them though.

Late 2007 - Summer before freshman year. This is as closest to my natural color and hair texture that I can remember seeing it.

Senior year 2007ish - I had cut my hair really short again, and dyed it lighter, probably a mix of all the crazy highlights I had gotten.

Junior Year - My senior picture was taken Junior year. I loved my hair. I wish I could wear my hair like this all the time.

Junior Year 2005 - Still longish. Dyed it pretty dark. Almost black! I had gotten it curled for Junior Prom. Looking back, I definitely could have curled it myself lol.

Junior Year 2005 - My hairs at a really nice length and I took these pictures RIGHT after I dyed it. I thought I looked pretty hot at the time. My hairs really fried.
Freshman year 2003 - With Liz. I have spent since then trying to get my hair to be this color. And my bangs like that. And that texture. Nope. It shall never be like that again.

attack of the exs

Im pretty sure who ever is up there looked down on me this weekend and said "lets make this the most confusing weekend EVER! bam! Attack of the ex boyfriends!"

So last night I went to the Ferrison show at the Metro, which was fantastic, and Kyle was there. Proceeded to talk vaguely, he spilled his beer down the front of my shirt, we talked, I became all googly eyed once again, gave him a really nice hug when I left, he asked for my number, and we went our separate ways.

Later that night, turns out he is at Dean's after-party. Continues to text me, tells me he's sorry profusely, discusses with me how he's in the midst of breaking up with his girlfriend, and trying to move out. Then asks me if I'm over him. How am I supposed to answer that? I've waited 2 years to have this conversation. Of course I say no. I'm not over him. There's still a bit of the person I feel in love with in there. Tell him all this, and we end the night hooking up in the alley. Yea...I'm an idiot.

He tells me he wants to get together today, around 3. Tells me he'll text me in the morning. Never heard from him. Did I expect to? A little bit. Oh well.

I spent the day with my mom, knowing John and I were going to order some food tonight and relax and chill. Turns out he had a long night, and then is watching the game, so I go to drop something off at his house at 11:00, cause I'm too tired to hang out and kinda pissed off that we didn't hang out early. So he meets me on the curb, and gives me this big hug, and fucking kisses me. WHAT THE FUCK??!! Seriously, lets mess with this girls emotions. I was shocked and taken aback and just kind of ignored it. He seemed a little confused that I ignored it, and I just got in my car and drove away.

I'm intrigued to find out how this all plays out. The soap opera of my life...

Kate Nash

So I'm sitting in Caribou, and a song came on that I haven't listened to in a long time comes on. I listened to it a lot when me and Kyle were together and even more when we broke up. I don't know why it made my heart sink. This is exactly the way I felt when I was with him and knew that it would never happen. It's such a sad, haunting song. I haven't seen him in so long, and I still can't figure out why he's so special. 

John's birthday is Thursday, two days from now. I know I want to write him  letter, tell him how much I love him, how much he means to me, how much he's saved me. And I don't know what to write. I can't get Kyle out of my head enough. 

Kate Nash - The Nicest Thing

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

August 25th, Day 51!

August 25th is day 51!!

Such a long time, and such nice things to my hair. 

Day 47, August 21st

August 21st, Day 47. Everythings going as well as can be. I like my hairs texture a lot more when I don't use shampoo. Next time I have the money, Ill be buying more Jungle shampoo and liquifying it. Solid Shampoos are great, but NOT conditioners.

Took a Lush Bath last night with:

Ocean Salt (used it on my feet)

Running to the Embassy (trying to get rid of it)

MMM melting marshmellow Moments (got it for free)

It was relaxing, but I will definitely not repurchase MMM. 

Expect a LUSH haul within the next few weeks. 

Day 46, August 20th

Day 46, August 20th

Work is kicking my ass. I've been off for the past few days though, so I'm ready to work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. It's like a real job! My feet are going to take a beating though. Hoping I don't have my on-call to close tonight, then I should be home around 9:30 and can take a LUSH bath. 

I've been really good about not eating too many calories, and still no weight lose. I think I need some more physical activity outside work. 

Tattoo

PS.

August 19th, day 45.

August 19th, day 45.

It's been a long time since I posted. Life has been hectic working SO much. Unfortunately, I think I might quit Victoria's Secret due to the fact that it was supposed to be a part time job but I'm working 43 hours a week...how does that work...? lol. ALSO! My last paycheck was $107! Thats how much fucking corporate taxes take out. Bitches. 

Hair's still doing well. I'm not AS obsessed about growing it out, because I got extensions and I can have long hair anytime I want.

Been spending a lot of time with the boy. Yay. Eww...if I wasn't myself, I'd totally think I was nauseating. But I think this is the longest period of time we've spend together. His birthday is August 27th, and I'm still deciding what to get him....liqour, hookah, clothes...who knows. 

I would drop my life to take her place

I'm sick of seeing you cry
And wasting all your time
On someone who will never care enough
To make you feel loved
To make you feel safe
I would drop my life to take his place

To show you just how good
Being touched could be
Commit these words to memory
For when you find yourself
Pinned under his demands
I am still an option that you have

So carry me around
Like a picture in your purse
Pull me out when things are at their worst

You can show up at my house
Completely unannounced
We'll have that movie kiss we talked about

Where there are no words
Just a soft and gentle score
Our ears will ring from all the strings

We'll let the screen go black
And watch the credits run
And see the names of every one

Who we ever met
And who we ever missed
Each one had a role in this

It's just another film that won't get made
I'm sick of seeing you cry 

--Her Space Holiday, Tech Romance

I feel like you should hear this song...then you'll know how much I love you.

August 11th, 36 days/ New tattoo

August 11th. 36 days. My hairs is so much better shape. I stopped taking the biotin pills though. I wasn't seeing a huge difference and it was a hassle taking them twice a day. 

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New tattoo in 6 days. A pretty big piece that I'm excited for. Pictures up  after.

i love you.

It's 1:12am. This has been going on for 3 years, and finally I tell you. 

I love you. I love you. There's nothing in this world I want more than to make you happy and take care of you and change your mind about the way you once felt about women. 

It took this long to say and I've said it. I never said it because being vulnerable means I could lose you. I'm still afraid of losing you.

VS new makeup line

Long hair makes me feel girly and sexy. haha. Day 30! WOW! 3o days. August 5th. 

Work today was FANTASTIC! We got 5 new products for free from the new line. I got this FAB berry colored lipstick called "vino". A neutral beige lipgloss in "glow". A really pretty pink blush trio called "giddy" that is SUPER pink and unlike anything I have. A eyeshadow quad that I'll probably give to my mom in "menage". And a hi-def mascara that is also FAB! They have this fantastic primer and foundation too that I'm going to buy when I have the money. 

 lipgloss in glow

hi def mascara

I also got some Christian Siriano makeup last week. 

 gilded fierce

bronzer trio

makeup bag

Day 29

Day 29! August 4th!

I got some extensions today and they match PERFECTLY. 

disgusting!

How cosmetics are tested on animals.

The first test is for eye irritations, or Draize test, in which shampoos and cosmetics are put into rabbit’s eyes, which are fastened, open. The chemical causes blistering, swelling and blindness. The pain often becomes so intense that the rabbit breaks its back trying to get away from it.

The second test is the skin irritation test in which the test animal has an area of its back stripped of fur and the test product repeatedly rubbed into the bare skin causing rash, pain and swelling.

The third test is the LD/50 test (Lethal dose - 50% die). In this test cosmetics are force fed to test animals to determine the amount necessary to cause 50% of them to die in severe agony from such things as organ blockage, toxic reaction, and convulsions.

Fourth is the inhalation test. In this test, animals are sprayed repeatedly in the face for a 2-1/2 hour period, and then killed and their tissues examined.

Shopping haul

My mother and I went shopping this past weekend and I got a few things. VERY out of order. I'm too lazy to put them in the correct order.

LUSH - Lemony Flutter Cuticle Butter - $13.50 - I've been wanting this for quite some time now. Only used it once (last night), but I don't know if it works well or not yet. Its a really thick cream/butter that smells FANTASTIC!

SEPHORA - Frederic Fekkai - $23.00 - I wanted a beachy wave spray because while at work for Victoria's Secret, we had a discontinued product. I had heard nothing but good things about this brand, and have used it only once now on damp hair. It smells awesome, has light hold, but is a bit expensive. Unless it does something fantastic, I probably won't buy it again.

 MAC - Triple Fusion Mineralize Skinfinish - $27.00 but I get a 40% discount - Loving this stuff. Darlene put it on both my mom and I, and we both ended up buying it. Its a little similar to the "soft and gentle" that I already own, but this is a bit pinker.

 URBAN OUTFITTERS - Romper - $43.00 -  I got some shoes and a necklace from UO when I went shopping with my mom, and got home to realize I couldn't wear the shoes to work and didn't want a $50.00 necklace that I didn't love. I am however, LOVING rompers lately. So I got this really cute one with a cute belt to wear for my party on Friday.
 MAC - Mineralize Skinfinish Natural in Medium - $27.00 - I wanted a mineralize all over mac powder for a while now and this stuff is MAGIC! If I wanted, I wouldn't even need to wear a foundation. Amazing coverage, matches my skintone perfectly. So happy I got it.
 VICTORIA'S SECRET - So excited about this!! A new collection designed by Christian Siriano. We got a few products in, but not everything. It isn't released until the 11th, but I was clocking out, and my boss knew how excited I was and looked at me, took out the new makeup bag, put in the bronzer, and gilded fierce shadow (all we had in stock) and handed it to me without saying anything. I'm the only one in the chicagoland area that has it!! The bag is fantastic, and gilded fierce is a perfect smokey eye color, with gold and green sparkles.  
 MAC - Lightful Charged Essence Serum - $44.00 - This is a skin moisturizer, but because its so expensive, and I use moisture lush, I've been using this as an under eye gel. It feels amazing! My mom bought some as well, and also the moisturizer to go with it. 
 URBAN OUTFITTERS - Belt - $28.00 - This is the belt that I got to go along with my romper for friday!

Day 28/August 3rd.

day 28, August 3rd. 

Ugh...Im getting extensions. Done and Done. Clip ins though. 

Same as always. But haven't been taking my pills religiously. 

hair progress

 Hair Progress pic #2.

I got it trimmed today. No length was taken off, just bulk. I thought it would be a good idea to get haircuts every 8 weeks like this, it's cheap and healthier. I also got a deep conditioning treatment. 

Day 23. July 29

Day 23...July 29

So Im giving in and getting a trim just cause my ends are so bad. I only trust Eli to literally dust the edges of my hair and fix my bangs. He's also giving me an insane discount on a deep conditioning treatment. So yay! No heat...pills. Everything the same.

Week 3. Day 21, July 27th!

Day 21! Week 3! July 27th!

Yesterday was the party at Brittany''s that I had spoken about in an earlier blog, and we had our hair done. I just had a few curls thown in mine to create a beachy/wavy look, and then later in the day, it was pinned back. Not a lot of heat, but SO much hairspray. I took a shower and used shampoo and conditioner right as soon as we were finished and my hair doesn't seem to be in worse condition. Apparently the hairstylist said she knew I was growing my hair out because my layers were long, which is a good sign that the pills are working! Yay!

My daily plate

I found this fantastic site called My daily plate, so I no longer have to post my diet info here. This will mainly be beauty and my hair growth/health again!

Day 17! July 23rd!/ Diet

Day 17! July 23rd!

Pill today, no heat, as always.

My hair is continuing to fall out. I dont know why that is...maybe the high level of stress and depression lately. Need to work on that.

Interview tonight at the Hookah Bar downstairs! I REALLLLY want this job!

Diet:

I caved and ate...MCDONALDS! eww. But thats like all Im going to eat today.

10 piece chicken nuggets- 400 calories

1/2 Sweet Tea - 115 calories

I've decided that counting calories is NOT enough. I need to figure out an exercise plan. Being outside and running might help my depression too. 

Day 16 JULY 22nd/ Diet

Day 16! July 22nd!

Pills, no heat. Haven't washed my hair yet. 

Diet: 

rice and butter- 390

Cheese and sausage - 88 calories (sausage) 101 (cheese)

mashed potatoes - 358 calories

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= 871 calories

(Eww..mashed potatoes are SO high in calories...good thing I split them with Max!)

day 15! July 21st! /diet

Day 15! July 21st! 

No heat, pills as usual. Sunday, my friend Brittany and I are doing this thing called Booze and Boas, where a makeup artist, hair stylist and photographer are coming to Brittanys house and we have fun, So I probably will be using heat on my hair, but one time in 3 weeks is really good! 

Diet: 

8 chicken wings- 500 calories (ew! But I was tired of rice!)

1 cupcake - 240 calories

3 peanut butter cookies- 215 calories

steak tostada - 369

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=1324 calories

I DID HORRIBLE TODAY!

Week 2/Diet

Day 14! July 20th! Week 2!

Pills today. No heat...thats just crazy haha. No straightening in 2 weeks! Shampooed my hair this evening because it was feeling really oily. Used a combo of Ultimate Shine and Godiva, with Jungle Conditioner...fantastic.

Diet:

I found a little book to record my habits and calories.

Cheese/Pretzels/Meat- 23o calories

philidelphia maki rolls - 319 calories

soup with rice and egg - 422 calories

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= 971 calories

LUSH/MAC haul/Day 13 July 19th!

Day 13! July 19th!

No heat still...unfortunately...I missed 3 days with my biotin pills because I left them at home when I went to spend the weekend in the suburbs. But I'll be right back on them tomorrow!

So diet wise, I've decided, I'm going to count my calories during the week (Monday through Friday) and try and eat super healthy. My mom and I really enjoy eating out together and eating a lot of things and it just doesn't make sense to try and count my calories on weekends and deprive myself of things I enjoy. 

I had a REALLY good interview with Victoria's Secret beauty department on Friday and got called for a second interview for tomorrow, so my mom gave me a little extra cash to get something cute to wear from forever 21.

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 I also stopped in at LUSH and MACpro!

My LUSH haul:

Sugar Scrub - $4.95 - I had wanted either the sugar scrub or the sugar babe since they become available in the store. Honestly, I was leaning more towards Sugar babe, but this really nice sales girl in the store told me she liked sugar scrub better because it helped with stretch marks. yay!

Extra Virgin Olive Soap - My piece was approx. $8.00 - I had gotten about $35.00 worth of stuff, and if you spend $40.00, you get a free bath melt, so I asked the sales girl what her favorite kind of soap was and she told me this one. It smells fantastic and is really toning apparently. So, we'll see how I like it!

Wiccy Magic Muscles Massage Bar - $8.75- My mom got this massage bar, and I was always against it because I thought it smelled weird..without me actually smelling it, but when I used hers, I knew I had to have it because of the such high content of peppermint oil, which I've been loving lately.

Dream Cream - Sample - The sales woman gave me three samples and this was one of them. 

Handy Guru - Sample - The sales woman gave me three samples and this was one of them. 

Jasmine and Henna Fluff Ease - One of the three samples. I LOVE  this stuff.

Jungle Conditioner - My piece was approx. $5.00 - This is something I've been wanting to try for a really long time. I haven't been shampooing my hair, and I don't like their regular conditioners, so I thought a solid conditioner would be interesting to try. I used it already in the shower this evening, and it was a little difficult to figure out how to use (ended up breaking off pieces and making a paste), but the only difference I've noticed so far is the smell. More update later. 

MMM melting marshmellow moments bath melt - free if you spend over $40.00 - Obviously, this is the bath melt I got for spending over $40.00. I'm not too keen on the super sweet scent, but I've been wanting to try this one and floating islands, so again, we'll see how I like it. 

Blackberry bath bomb - $5.80-I wanted to try this one as well. It smelled just like grape soda, the water looked like koolaid and it says "bomb" on the top of the bath bomb. When the bath bomb has all fizzed out, theres a little note inside that says "boom boom!" it made me feel so much better because I was a little down! And the scent lingers on your skin. My favorite bath bomb by far!

Butterball bath bomb - $4.85 - Is supposed to be the most moisturizing bath bomb, so I wanted to try it. On the small side. With  a vanilla scent. 

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Because I was at LUSH, I stopped in at MACpro, and bought just a few things. Yes, I cheated on project ten pan.

Eye Pencil in Phone Number - a charcoal dark grey color

Color Craft Eye Quad in Odd Bits -a bluish grey, a light pink, a cream color, and a burgandy

Plush plumping lipglass in Fulfilled - a lip plumping lip gloss with a milky sheen

DAY 10! July 16th

July 16th: day 10!
Same as usual. No heat, taking pill everyday, twice a day. Apparently it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. 11 days to go! 

But my hair has been falling out more than usual. Either thats because somethings wrong, or because the vitamins are creating a high abundance of extra hair. I'm hoping its the latter.

Diet: 

rice and butter:390 calories

Herb chicken ravioli at Pompei: 472 calories

1 small cupcake: 120 calories

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= 982 Calories

July 15: Day 9!

Hair: no heat, and vitamins

Day 9! JULY 15!

Diet:

Day 2! 

Apple-72 calories

egg(fried)- 92 calories

ramen noodles - 190 calories

2 slices of zucchini bread - 346 calories

Rice with butter - 230 calories

1/2 McDonalds Sweet Tea - 115 calories

2 slices cinnamon raisin bread - 160 

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=1,205 calories

Day 8, JULY 14th/Weight Loss

July 14th, Day 8! Pretty good. Still no heat. Pill this morning, and then I'll take it tonight after dinner.

So those of you who know me; I am OBSESSED with youtube videos. Particularly makeup gurus. WELL:  they've all decided to do a weight channel. And because of growing my nails out,hair out, I think I just want to get healthier and lose some weight. 

Now, I'm not overweight. Although there are places that take my weight: my mid section and my boobs. I'm 5'4 and 139 lbs. Thats not horrible, but I'd like to lose some weight. I don't have any sob story about why I gained weight, just I happen to love food, and going out to eat with my friends. A lot of them have decided to calorie count, and I checked; I should be eating 1400 calories a day to lose 1-2 lbs. So I also want to hold myself accountable. So Im going to start posting on here what I eat and how many calories they are.

A bowl of captain crunch cereal-208 Calories

Chicken casserole-720 calories

Apple cookie-50 calories

1 med raw banana- 105 calories   

2 slices zuchini bread- 346 calories

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= 1429 calories. Only 18 calories over. Good start!

Thats all I've eaten so far today. So Ill post back tomorrow!

July 13th, Day 7! WEEK 1!

July 13th, Day 7. 1 week of growing out my hair. No heat, religiously taking vitamins, eating more protein. No dying, obviously. I deep conditioned my ends last night and they're a little bit better. Just wanted to document my progress. 

He is love, and he is all I need

I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around, 
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days, 
But she makes me want to believe.

They call her love, love, love, love, love. 
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She's all I need.

Well I had my ways, they were all in vain, 
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same, all my pride and shame, 
And she put me on my feet.

They call her love, love, love, love, love. 
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need. 

Cause when that world slows down, dear.
And when those stars burn out, here.
Oh she'll be there, yes she'll be there, 
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need, 
She is love, and she is all I need, 
She is love, and she is all I need.

***I wish I could replace the she's with he's, and this would be my song for you :). We're always going to be in each others lives no matter what; that I have faith in. 

ugh High school girls

Its kinda nice to see that the girls who were mean to me in High School are now fat and wear ugly clothes, and they're football player boyfriends dumped them. 

LUSH UK haul/ July 12th Day 6th!

My LUSH package arrived! 

Samples:

Narcotick Shower Gel - Lavender,Rose, lemon shower gel. I dont like their shower gels, so Ill probably give this to my roommate. 

Flying Fox Shower Gel - Jasmine and Honey shower gel. This smells so good, I may have to try it!

Karma Soap - Been wanting to try this! So excited I got so many samples! Orange and Pachoulli smell. A little different for me, but we'll see!

Bohemian Soap - Lemon drop soap! I love my citrus's! 

Cosmetic Lad Moisturizer - Orange Vanilla scented moisturizer for guys. Roomie again!

Haul:

Two Timing Tart Bubble Bar - Doesn't smell as fruity as I would have liked. A lot more on the coconut side. Broke when I picked it up, but thats good! It means its really fresh. It's very very pink, so I can't wait for my bath and to see the color!

Pleasure Dough Bubble Bar - I forgot I even ordered this! Rose, Lavender and Orange Blossom bubble bar. The lavender really comes through and it smells like my moms kitchen. I don't know if thats a good thing or not yet. 

Miranda Soap - This only has a light kiwi smell. I wish it were a little more apparent. But delicious smelling!

Sicilian Bath Bomb - This smells very clean and fresh. Probably the first one I will use. 

After 8:30 Massage Bar - WAYYY smaller than I thought it would be. Amazing scent (EXACTLY like frango mints), and the mint is so apparent. But in the first 5 seconds of using it, I got chocolate all over my hands. Yuck.

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Day 6. No heat on my hair for almost a week! Taking pills religiously. But my ends are SO bad. I might give in and get a trim (dusting!) next week. Heavy Conditioning is just not doing it.