July 9th: Day 3! And...Ultra Nourishair

Day 3! Of growing out my hair.

I went this morning and bought the Ultra Nourishair with 120 pills. $18.00 for 3 months of pills (you take these GIGANTIC pills twice a day after breakfast and dinner). That's not that bad of a price. Especially since after 10 days if you're not seeing results, you can take the bottle back, and get a full refund. I took one this morning after I bought it, and they taste like crap! But I better see some results!

Gah, I've been super sick since Tuesday morning. I think I'm going to lay in bed for the next few days, and just take it easy this weekend. 

perfumes

So, Im kinda weird about my perfumes. I've always wanted a "signature" scent, and I established one for myself last fall, and received a HUGE gift set for christmas from my dad and thats Donna Karen's Cashmere Mist. I have it in a lotion, deodorant (my second one, they're huge but i keep them in my purse so it goes like crazy!) and the perfume. I love it, but now Im running into this problem of it being a fall/wintery scent. 

At school, because it was Aveda, we had to wear natural scents and scents that they sold, so I found one that I really liked, but wasnt really a perfume. They call them chakras and i had the "power" scent, which was lavender, lemon and balasm.

I used to wear Gucci's "Envy", but the smell was too citrus and girly, and I like a muskier scent. Now, I've been keeping Ruehl's "for her" scent in my bag, that people LOVE, but I'm still looking for a summery scent. 

I smelled "Unconditional Love" by philosophy the other day at Macys and really liked it,but Im waiting, and will go smell it again because i dont want to spend the money and not like it.

Things I wish I would have said

I don't think I've ever been so disappointed in my life at the person you are, and Im starting to wonder if it's who you've always been or something you've developed over time. I think a giant portion of your life consists of lying to other people and lying to yourself. What a warped sense of reality you've created for yourself. You've started to live in this world where everything is so fake, and you've taught yourself to believe it's true and real. 

You think buying people things makes them like you? I used to think that too. I used to think that taking care of people with materials would make them realize how much I care about them. But instead, it just makes people laugh in your face, and talk about how dumb you are behind your back, which is exactly what happened to you.

The people that are your actually friends won't care how much money you spend on them or how much you sacrifice. As long as you're an honest person, and don't use and take advantage of the people you claim to care about. This is exactly what happened to me. I gave so much of myself, and my money (which I was required to do because my parents made more income, right?) and got used and taken advantage for it, and got lied to for almost 3 years.

One day you'll take a look at yourself and realize...I took events from websites and told everyone they were a part of my life. Or, I forged all the poetry I wrote from someone else's ideas. Or I wanted cool things to happen to me, so I told everyone they did. And when asked to be proven, more lies were created, more excuses, until you started to believe them yourself. I never wanted the world's coolest friend, but someone who knew who they were. 

Its taken me quite some time to find people who care about me, and who I can care about, with priorities and values I share. But its all been worth it. 

JULY 8th DAY 2

So my plan is to update with a picture every 30 days, that way I can see my progress as well. But for today, I realized how easy it is to let me hair dry naturally and not use heat tools or products, and my hair looks really cute. It's just a progress. 

I'm going to start taking these pills called Nourishair that are really good for your hair, skin and nails. Hopefully that will work as well. 

***EDIT***

So I've been trying to eat more protein, so I put eggs in my ramen this morning. HEY! Its a start. 

I've not been shampooing my hair, for the past few days I just put conditioner on my ends, and while its sinking in , I do a quick wet scalp massage (I've been doing it a lot while my hairs dry. Its becoming a habit! It feels good, its addictive, and it releases the oils that you're scalp produces and spreads them to the rest of your hair!) And when I got out of the shower, I didn't scrub my head, just have it wrapped in a towel. 

Growing my hair out. JULY 7th, DAY 1

So this is day one of growing my hair out. I've been researching how to grow hair longer and faster and the best ways to do it. I thought if I wrote it down, I'd be less likely to dye my hair, and use a lot of styling tools. 

So...shampoo less often, no dying, and less usage of styling products. Absolutely no cuts! A lot of sites say to cut your hair often, but if I go get my haircut, I'll just want to cut it all off. Soo...

12 months. 12 months I can do. 16 is what I want to do though. 

John VS. Brad

So I know...its like my 10000th post today, but I've been thinking for a while how much this guy, Brad,I paint sometimes looks like John! Granted...Brad is 30 (DOESNT LOOK IT) and John is 22 in August. 
 

LUSH and MAC Haul/Review

Went to LUSH with Ally yesterday and got some stuff:

Sunny Side Bubble Bar - $5.95 - This bubble bar smells like Sweet Oranges and tangerines. I love citrus scents, was a little thrown aback about how glittery the product was, so I put off buying this. However, it was between Pop in the bath bubble bar and this, so I bought this one instead.

Coal Face Facial Cleanser -Free with a coupon - I got a small sample of this because every time I seem to go in there, they give me a coupon for a free facial cleanser or solid shampoo. So I got a solid facial cleanser this time. I never got this before, because it has a very overpowering licorice scent. 

 Big Blue Bath Bomb - $5.80 - I had wanted to get this and the smell is to die for! Im surprised I hadn't picked this up before, but it as exfoliating sea salt in it (however, I am a little worried it will dry out my skin...) and smells like lemon and lavender. AWESOME!

 Cupcake Face Mask - Everytime I go in there, I always get a sample of one of their face masks. The masks are a bit expensive and I never use them twice a week, so a sample is free, and I get 2 or 3 uses out of it. It almost makes me feel bad, but I purchase so much from them, I don't feel AS bad. This smells like bananas and chocolate, with a hint of mint it in. I want to eat it.

REVIEWS:

 Cupcake Facial Mask - THIS IS MY NEW FAVORITE MASK! I like it better than love lettuce. Its not exfoliating as much, but its really smooth and the scent is amazing and I can really feel a difference already. I may purchase a full size of this after I'm done trying the other masks. 

Coal Face Facial Cleanser - The scent is SO icky. It smells kinda manly, so I might give it to my roommate. I wet the bar and rubbed it between my hands, and it got all gritty, but not good exfoliating gritty...but like nasty dirty gritty. It made me feel dirtier than when I went to wash my face. Good thing it was free...

Ceridwen's Cauldron Bath Melt - I finally got a chance to use it, and I love it! It's in this little satchel so that the oatmeal thats in it doesn't get all over the tub. The melt is heavenly, and smells really light herbal smell (lavender, sandalwood, frankincense) that I surprisingly really enjoyed. Definitely buying it again.
 Sunny Side Bubble Bar - I'm still not sure about this. The bubbles were big and full, but I didn't like the smell as much as I thought I would. It left me feeling really moisturized, and little bits of glitter all over my skin (and not the bathtub!) which I really liked. But it made the water all yellow, which is kinda gross...still deciding. 

I decided NOT to repurchase this. When I got up to take a shower this morning, my tub was all yellow, and I had to scrub it off, and it was really slippery. eek!

I made a little trip to MAC! I wanted a very specific color by NYX and wanted to find it at MAC instead because I get a huge discount. So the last of my buying before PROJECT 10 PAN!

Dark Side Lipstick - $14.00, $8.00 with my MACpro card - has an amplified finish, and IM IN LOVE. With a little bit of "sin" cremesheen over it, its really pretty. When it fades, it looks just like a stain. Works really well with my haircolor. 

 Mineralize Skinfinish Highlighter in "Soft and Gentle"- $27.00 regular price I paid $16 with my MACpro card (thank god!) - if you read my 10 things I can't live without - this is on there. LOVE this, whether its wet or dry. Because it's a mineral powder, you can wet it and it won't ruin the product.